Hey brother dear, Life is getting to be a bit too long for my liking. The days and nights just slowly creep by leaving their marks clear enough that we know that they were there. Im missing you and Dominick and Vito really bad today. So bad, that at one point I closed my eyes and wanted to join hands with you all. Mom is not the same, nor will she ever be again. Where you are now is wonderful, no more hurt, pain, and pettiness in your life, but we are left empty, voided, a hole drilled inside our hearts. That will never go away. I want one day of relief to remember each of my brothers with love and joy and peace and not with tears about my hurting, my emptiness. I want to rejoice for you three and I suppose one day I will learn how. Selfishly, I want you all back and back to where we were as kids so that so much can be done differently and we can grow up knowing we wont have each other for ever. Even though we know that, forever never ends today or tomorrow, we just dont think of it like that. But just one more chance, one more talk, one more laughter, one more card game, one more coffee cup, one more i love you..... i miss you all so much!