For the past 3 weeks the memorial site has been closed, I didn't realize how much I use this site as a place to grieve and vent until I couldn't use it. This time gave me time to reflect and maybe come to some sort of terms with your passing. Its so unfair that we get to live and you don't, Its so unfair that you got to go to heaven at this point in time and we didn't. I realize that I don't think there will ever come a day that you won't be in my thoughts,or a day that my heart wont feel sadness because you are not here. I realize life goes on and there is nothing we can do about that. I learned that life will never and can never be the same when you lose someone you love so much. And then there are the lessons to be learned from this heart break; life is short, life is what you make of it, NOTHING is more important than family, don't ever take anyone or anything for granted, and most important live each day as if it were your last because you never know if there will be a tomorrow. There is a catch to me knowing these things and even though we know these things we don't always do the right thing which is simply living it. I miss you Steven, today , tomorrow and always.